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Everything started when I added HIM...
That was when I thought it was fate that brought me to HIM...
I can still remember everything like it was just yesterday ..
I can still remember his 1st smile towards me..
The 1st word he spoke to me..
Everything about HIM at that moment was just almost perfect..
That was when we were about to take our SPM examinations which was just around the corner..
We agreed to study together with another 2 of our friends..
We did hang out a lot more than I had expected..
Mostly at his house.. Well of course I had fun..
I can still remember those jokes that we laughed about..

I was happy..

But then I started to like HIM
I didn't expect anything to happen...And so I did not tell anyone about it..
I hid my feelings for HIM.. but then I guess it was obvious enough that I liked HIM..
But it was impossible ..And I thought it will always be impossible..
UNTIL..
He asked me to be his girlfriend.. And that it was just for fun..
Well although I know it was wrong but then I was happy at that exact moment..
I was satisfied when he told me that he liked me..
I don't need anything else..I'm satisfied knowing that he liked me as well
But I was greedy... I accepted HIM.. I was naive to think that it'll lasts...
I was fucking wrong!
6 days later he broke up with me.. I was broken but then I saw it coming..
I couldn't blame HIM..
It was my fault that I got myself hurt...
"I rush out into the streets even though I saw cars coming"
"I was willing to get hit AND I got hit.."
I wanted to know what its liked getting hurt and I finally got it.. =(
I was hurt for 4 times..by HIM..
I was naive! darn stupid!
When you liked someone YOU GO BLIND!
Now I understand the phrase "LOVE IS BLIND"
But then he told me that he is still in love with his ex..
He is unable to forget those times he spent with her..
I can see he still cares a lot about her..
I don't want to see him getting hurt..I don't want him to suffer
I don't want to see him sad.. As I will too..
I'm letting him go ..But I will always watch out for him...
Because deep down in me..I'm still in love with HIM..
I will forget HIM..
Can we still be friends?? I seriously doubt that..
I blame myself for accepting in the 1st place
I was greedy... Everything happens for a reason
And I believe everything that happened leads me somewhere..
I will not deny GOD's existence and HIS assistance ...I'll move on!

And I pray for those who got hurt and whose lives were taken by the horrible disasters in JAPAN..You are not alone.. We are here with love and support..Do not give up hope~

lolololololol

im playing quite alot since DECEMBER 19th...That was the day i accepted someone's offer to be his girlfriend...bt jz to help him .. bt it was nice..~ i seriously dun regret it..
Hope 2011 brings me luck in love n studies!! to my family too...
now the same thing happens to me all over again...another playful relationship...i mean wad am i? to be doin dis...
Wif sumone close pulak tu...lol hmmm...wonder how will it turns out in the end...
TT happy or sad [ =) or =( ]
he's cute btw~ n i have always admire him... hmm... >.IM 18 for god's sake...of cz i love sweet talks..lol n he's a very gud sweet talker~ tat i dun lie..haha xD may everything work out fine...! until he finds his juliette n i find my romeo...xP till thn we're stuck together..haha =]

关心~

你突然跟我说你受了伤

我吓到

很想见你，可是不能

我偷偷哭~~

不想你知道...我真的很关心你的.....

不想看到你辛苦~~~

虽然我不太会和你说我爱你...可是不代表我不爱你~~ >.<

Exams over!!

Hurray for me...for ppl who r taking exams as well...
let ur stress go n relax...
im gonna shop all day . watch tv all night..
it seems tat im the one gettin into holiday mood a little too early
cz there's 1 more week to go..n im already taking 2 days off to stay home n beautify my skin
as they r gettin spoiled by stress
lolx...i guess they take after me
im stress cz of exam n so they were to...lolxx
kinda funny//...

another matter~~
she asked me whether im dissapointed onot..
is tat a sign she still cares???
cz i dun really treat her as sumone anymore...
but still
i might hav looked a few times
is tat a sign i havent forgotten???
2 months hav past . n ntg happens yet
wonder tat chance of gettin back still lies open?
wat should i do??

Break ~ UP

Finally it has come to dis...
I predicted dis...not really serious bout it in d 1st place..

9/1/10 ~ 4/3/10

Kinda feel sad though
*** said it 1st
so it makes me d one gettin dumped...
Well i thought of it...i guess its my fault
im not willing to commit....But im glad its over
I jz hope *** doesn't think tat i hate ***
Cz i really don't...
I even avoid *** in a way....
OOhhhh....!!
Dun even wanna think bout it
Frust all over
I really shouldn't have accepted....

Future is set..past is past
Let go N embrace a new one
Sadness gone,
Happiness comes,
Memories of us left to rot
At the end of the day
U n I will realise dis is d rite thing

Wish u d best in everything N dun give up no matter wat happens...^^

Confuse

Relationships....Relationships....
Wat do u think whn it comes to dis word??
i DUNNO...seriously
Not really sure wat to do or wat to say


I really liked *** but i dunno how to expressed it to ***
Didn't really know wat to say
Sometimes im not really sure wat i want frm ***
i jz wan to stay near ***
jz wan to heAR *** voice
missing *** every single second of the day

Lonely without *** presence or even existance
Am i tat abnormal?? to like a person tat way..

Sometimes i felt insecure and blurry
about wat's gonna happen if anyone finds out
but i want the world to know tat we're together
freaking damn not fair...

sometimes i wonder if we're really meant for each other
cant really think straight
I really hope *** would give me a straight answer to my question...
I wan to know wats true n wats rite...

OMG TASUKETE!!!!

OMG!!
wat to do...wat to do....
i certainly cant live like dis
i dun like YOU
Plz dun say d "word"
I dun wanna hear it coming out from ur mouth
i jz thought of u as a fren
i mean i dun even c u everyday but OH GOD...
i still haven't gotten over her yet
plz dun make me do this
IF YOU'RE GONNA SAY THE "WORD"
I think i might die from it
***** i still like u no matter wat
pls support me in wat im doin no matter if its gonna hurt the other person

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