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Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
=( PART II
Hate how these feelings keep glue-ing themselves to me..
Im still confused about how I feel about him..
I can't seem to forget but IM about to...
I don't even understand myself
How am I suppose to understand my other half someday?? @@
Im going absolutely crazy...! =(
What do I have to do to earn YOUR attention?
Or maybe I should just give it up and just let it go?
That's what Im good at..GIVING UP~
On the other hand, Im trying to make myself presentable..
And currently it sucks! I don't even know where to start..
I need to work out my body first but then Im worried sick about my skin..
GEEZ! What a life!
I really envied those who have a simple life with great complexion and body..
They don't have to do much to gain people's attention..
I wanted to feel all that attention...
Currently its a NO!
What should I do??
I wana be HOT !
I wana be CUTE!
I wana be ATTRACTIVE!
lolz xD
I was once told I was sexually appealing..Wonder if its true or not..? @@
Nah! don't care.. >.< ..
Im still confused about how I feel about him..
I can't seem to forget but IM about to...
I don't even understand myself
How am I suppose to understand my other half someday?? @@
Im going absolutely crazy...! =(
What do I have to do to earn YOUR attention?
Or maybe I should just give it up and just let it go?
That's what Im good at..GIVING UP~
On the other hand, Im trying to make myself presentable..
And currently it sucks! I don't even know where to start..
I need to work out my body first but then Im worried sick about my skin..
GEEZ! What a life!
I really envied those who have a simple life with great complexion and body..
They don't have to do much to gain people's attention..
I wanted to feel all that attention...
Currently its a NO!
What should I do??
I wana be HOT !
I wana be CUTE!
I wana be ATTRACTIVE!
lolz xD
I was once told I was sexually appealing..Wonder if its true or not..? @@
Nah! don't care.. >.< ..
Saturday, March 12, 2011
=(
Everything started when I added HIM...
That was when I thought it was fate that brought me to HIM...
I can still remember everything like it was just yesterday ..
I can still remember his 1st smile towards me..
The 1st word he spoke to me..
Everything about HIM at that moment was just almost perfect..
That was when we were about to take our SPM examinations which was just around the corner..
We agreed to study together with another 2 of our friends..
We did hang out a lot more than I had expected..
Mostly at his house.. Well of course I had fun..
I can still remember those jokes that we laughed about..
I was happy..
But then I started to like HIM
I didn't expect anything to happen...And so I did not tell anyone about it..
I hid my feelings for HIM.. but then I guess it was obvious enough that I liked HIM..
But it was impossible ..And I thought it will always be impossible..
UNTIL..
He asked me to be his girlfriend.. And that it was just for fun..
Well although I know it was wrong but then I was happy at that exact moment..
I was satisfied when he told me that he liked me..
I don't need anything else..I'm satisfied knowing that he liked me as well
But I was greedy... I accepted HIM.. I was naive to think that it'll lasts...
I was fucking wrong!
6 days later he broke up with me.. I was broken but then I saw it coming..
I couldn't blame HIM..
It was my fault that I got myself hurt...
"I rush out into the streets even though I saw cars coming"
"I was willing to get hit AND I got hit.."
I wanted to know what its liked getting hurt and I finally got it.. =(
I was hurt for 4 times..by HIM..
I was naive! darn stupid!
When you liked someone YOU GO BLIND!
Now I understand the phrase "LOVE IS BLIND"
But then he told me that he is still in love with his ex..
He is unable to forget those times he spent with her..
I can see he still cares a lot about her..
I don't want to see him getting hurt..I don't want him to suffer
I don't want to see him sad.. As I will too..
I'm letting him go ..But I will always watch out for him...
Because deep down in me..I'm still in love with HIM..
I will forget HIM..
Can we still be friends?? I seriously doubt that..
I blame myself for accepting in the 1st place
I was greedy... Everything happens for a reason
And I believe everything that happened leads me somewhere..
I will not deny GOD's existence and HIS assistance ...I'll move on!
And I pray for those who got hurt and whose lives were taken by the horrible disasters in JAPAN..You are not alone.. We are here with love and support..Do not give up hope~
That was when I thought it was fate that brought me to HIM...
I can still remember everything like it was just yesterday ..
I can still remember his 1st smile towards me..
The 1st word he spoke to me..
Everything about HIM at that moment was just almost perfect..
That was when we were about to take our SPM examinations which was just around the corner..
We agreed to study together with another 2 of our friends..
We did hang out a lot more than I had expected..
Mostly at his house.. Well of course I had fun..
I can still remember those jokes that we laughed about..
I was happy..
But then I started to like HIM
I didn't expect anything to happen...And so I did not tell anyone about it..
I hid my feelings for HIM.. but then I guess it was obvious enough that I liked HIM..
But it was impossible ..And I thought it will always be impossible..
UNTIL..
He asked me to be his girlfriend.. And that it was just for fun..
Well although I know it was wrong but then I was happy at that exact moment..
I was satisfied when he told me that he liked me..
I don't need anything else..I'm satisfied knowing that he liked me as well
But I was greedy... I accepted HIM.. I was naive to think that it'll lasts...
I was fucking wrong!
6 days later he broke up with me.. I was broken but then I saw it coming..
I couldn't blame HIM..
It was my fault that I got myself hurt...
"I rush out into the streets even though I saw cars coming"
"I was willing to get hit AND I got hit.."
I wanted to know what its liked getting hurt and I finally got it.. =(
I was hurt for 4 times..by HIM..
I was naive! darn stupid!
When you liked someone YOU GO BLIND!
Now I understand the phrase "LOVE IS BLIND"
But then he told me that he is still in love with his ex..
He is unable to forget those times he spent with her..
I can see he still cares a lot about her..
I don't want to see him getting hurt..I don't want him to suffer
I don't want to see him sad.. As I will too..
I'm letting him go ..But I will always watch out for him...
Because deep down in me..I'm still in love with HIM..
I will forget HIM..
Can we still be friends?? I seriously doubt that..
I blame myself for accepting in the 1st place
I was greedy... Everything happens for a reason
And I believe everything that happened leads me somewhere..
I will not deny GOD's existence and HIS assistance ...I'll move on!
And I pray for those who got hurt and whose lives were taken by the horrible disasters in JAPAN..You are not alone.. We are here with love and support..Do not give up hope~
Sunday, January 9, 2011
lolololololol
im playing quite alot since DECEMBER 19th...That was the day i accepted someone's offer to be his girlfriend...bt jz to help him .. bt it was nice..~ i seriously dun regret it..
Hope 2011 brings me luck in love n studies!! to my family too...
now the same thing happens to me all over again...another playful relationship...i mean wad am i? to be doin dis...
Wif sumone close pulak tu...lol hmmm...wonder how will it turns out in the end...
TT happy or sad [ =) or =( ]
he's cute btw~ n i have always admire him... hmm... >.IM 18 for god's sake...of cz i love sweet talks..lol n he's a very gud sweet talker~ tat i dun lie..haha xD may everything work out fine...! until he finds his juliette n i find my romeo...xP till thn we're stuck together..haha =]
Hope 2011 brings me luck in love n studies!! to my family too...
now the same thing happens to me all over again...another playful relationship...i mean wad am i? to be doin dis...
Wif sumone close pulak tu...lol hmmm...wonder how will it turns out in the end...
TT happy or sad [ =) or =( ]
he's cute btw~ n i have always admire him... hmm... >.IM 18 for god's sake...of cz i love sweet talks..lol n he's a very gud sweet talker~ tat i dun lie..haha xD may everything work out fine...! until he finds his juliette n i find my romeo...xP till thn we're stuck together..haha =]
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Exams over!!
Hurray for me...for ppl who r taking exams as well...
let ur stress go n relax...
im gonna shop all day . watch tv all night..
it seems tat im the one gettin into holiday mood a little too early
cz there's 1 more week to go..n im already taking 2 days off to stay home n beautify my skin
as they r gettin spoiled by stress
lolx...i guess they take after me
im stress cz of exam n so they were to...lolxx
kinda funny//...
another matter~~
she asked me whether im dissapointed onot..
is tat a sign she still cares???
cz i dun really treat her as sumone anymore...
but still
i might hav looked a few times
is tat a sign i havent forgotten???
2 months hav past . n ntg happens yet
wonder tat chance of gettin back still lies open?
wat should i do??
let ur stress go n relax...
im gonna shop all day . watch tv all night..
it seems tat im the one gettin into holiday mood a little too early
cz there's 1 more week to go..n im already taking 2 days off to stay home n beautify my skin
as they r gettin spoiled by stress
lolx...i guess they take after me
im stress cz of exam n so they were to...lolxx
kinda funny//...
another matter~~
she asked me whether im dissapointed onot..
is tat a sign she still cares???
cz i dun really treat her as sumone anymore...
but still
i might hav looked a few times
is tat a sign i havent forgotten???
2 months hav past . n ntg happens yet
wonder tat chance of gettin back still lies open?
wat should i do??
Monday, March 15, 2010
Break ~ UP
Finally it has come to dis...
I predicted dis...not really serious bout it in d 1st place..
9/1/10 ~ 4/3/10
Kinda feel sad though
*** said it 1st
so it makes me d one gettin dumped...
Well i thought of it...i guess its my fault
im not willing to commit....But im glad its over
I jz hope *** doesn't think tat i hate ***
Cz i really don't...
I even avoid *** in a way....
OOhhhh....!!
Dun even wanna think bout it
Frust all over
I really shouldn't have accepted....
Future is set..past is past
Let go N embrace a new one
Sadness gone,
Happiness comes,
Memories of us left to rot
At the end of the day
U n I will realise dis is d rite thing
Wish u d best in everything N dun give up no matter wat happens...^^
I predicted dis...not really serious bout it in d 1st place..
9/1/10 ~ 4/3/10
Kinda feel sad though
*** said it 1st
so it makes me d one gettin dumped...
Well i thought of it...i guess its my fault
im not willing to commit....But im glad its over
I jz hope *** doesn't think tat i hate ***
Cz i really don't...
I even avoid *** in a way....
OOhhhh....!!
Dun even wanna think bout it
Frust all over
I really shouldn't have accepted....
Future is set..past is past
Let go N embrace a new one
Sadness gone,
Happiness comes,
Memories of us left to rot
At the end of the day
U n I will realise dis is d rite thing
Wish u d best in everything N dun give up no matter wat happens...^^
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